Long time, memories lost

27.4 Monday

Sofa for 0 euros

I have decided to be kind when with my brain today while I write this. It is not by brains fault that I have waited this long to post. It is the fault of my will and planning. So, I will be kind with my brain and only extract the memories from my brain that I can get in an atmosphere of positivity, calm and relaxation.

Today I woke up with a heavy feeling. The room was bright and light. I made coffee and we drank it with some dates. (my memory is working hard already). I had a shower. Then we refurnished our "none"-room. Now it's more cosy. I washed the windows. They were dirty. I washed some clothes. They were dirty. We changed the soil for some of the plants.

For lunch I made pasta with a tomato sauce (one tomato, one can of tomato, a bit of tomato puré, two cloves of garlic, salt, pepper, chili flakes and oregano. I sprinkled feta cheese on the sauce. Salad with horse radish.

After food I biked to the office (I bought a little bit of sweets on the way). I agreed to an interview for a magazine about FIRE and spoke to a colleague on the phone. Titus came to the office. Now is now.

26.4 Sunday

In the band room

I woke up around 9 in the morning. My head was heavy from the long shooting day on Saturday. We had coffee and porridge with blueberries for breakfast. We drove first to Tali tennis court to return some tennis balls. Then we drove to Baggböle to pick up a cable. Then we drove back to Berhgäll and cleaned the van and carried up the red sofa that was in the van into our apartment. I drove Maria to Vallila and picked up Titus and Sara.

We shot one scene in a band room and another scene in front of an old statue in the city centre. I was a practical kind a guy. I drove the car, did some grip work and did some errands.

Basically the whole day we shot a music video. We were done around 20:30. Maria and I returned the van and unloaded the gear at our office. Then we had a delicious salad at home and watched a show about training SAS soldiers. I played some tank game before sleeping. I was tired.

25.4 Saturday

The whole day we shot a music video. The alarm rang at 6:00. I cannot recall when was the last time I woke up that early. We had porridge. We drove from Berghäll to Arabia tennis court and filmed one scene. Then we had lunch. Then we filmed one scene in the street, one in a restaurant and one in an apartment.

We were done at 12:30 and I was in bed sleeping at 02:00. It was a super long day.

Somebody trying to break into the van

Shooting late in the night

24.4 Friday

I was at least subconsciously preparing for the coming days shoot.

Van life.

We picked up a van in the morning and picked up a tennis racket and then a red sofa.

23.4 Thursday

Now my memory is blank so I consult calendars (mostly empty) and the photos in my phone.

I have spent some time on a new vlog project. I will upload the episodes when I have enough ready.

22.4 Wednesday

Maria did some location scouting and I joined her. We biked a lot.

Apple guy Sutit in windows

Behind the steering wheel

"Tjuv" plate

Berghäll in the night

21.4 Tuesday

Maria in front of the office

20.4 Monday

My brain had no information. You can file a complaint with the memory department (3rd floor)

19.4 Sunday

The sign said practice driving - tickets - 50 %.

18.4 Saturday

I don't know why I took this photo. Sorry internet.

Flemingsgatan in the neighbourhood Berghäll

Closet gone

17.4 Friday



16.4 Thursday

I biked to the city centre and was interviewed in the radio concerning the show Hacka livet that we had made. Titus and I participated and walked back to the office after that. We had sushi and a constructive meeting the three of us.

Maria and I walked to Lidl.

They want to hear what we have to say

Looks like a camera rig, no?

15.4 Wednesday - it was Titus birthday and we arranged some programme for him.

Accidential self portrait of a handsome man

Work in progress, removing closet. (vlog to follow soon)

 I thank the memory in my brain for this session. I am feeling sad and happy.

Covid-19 times

View from bedroom window

15.4 Wednesday.

Woke up 15 minutes ago. It is snowing outside. Typical late spring snow fall. With all the warm times it makes me feel nostalgic. Like a child and the cars drive through the wet slush.

14.4 Tuesday. Yesterday I woke up and had a shattered breakfast after coffee. Some bread with cheese and butter now and then. We had a zoom meeting and after the meeting I went to the apartment. I talked with a neighbour and then the electrician came to plan his work. Maria came to the apartment.

We went to the store and then home. I felt like thin Minestrone soup and Maria made a pot and we ate bread with tuna-mayo spread and pickled cucumber.

I edited from around 15:00-20:30. I was in a flow. I love that. It hasn't happened too much lately.

I biked home in the cold evening and made a sallad with lettuce (frisee salad), tomato, cucumber, olives and half a halloumi fried and sliced. We had some bread and cheese as well. Accompanied by water.

We went for a walk and saw that kids have moved in the apartment next to our old one. The one I am renovating. We walked to the grocery store on Helsingegatan took look for special offers. You can get stuff for - 60 % after 21:00 in the evening if there is a red tag on it  (before that it is 30%). We bought nothing and walked to another store through Lenin park. In the other store we bought a lot of nice stuff like pasha.

At home I played some World of Tanks Blitz and went to sleep around 23:45.

13.4 Monday.

We had coffee. I took a shower and went to office I edited on the Norway clip and every day I learn new stuff, basic stuff and other stuff. I worked the whole day, until the afternoon. I had a two rye breads with avocado and cheese for lunch with coffee. I picked up a camera and a stand and biked home. I made a mushroom pasta. Then I went to the renovated apartment to be. It was the first day of filming my construction vlog. I'll put a link here when the first episode is ready. After that I met Maria and we went to Lidl to do groceries. Then we had discussions.

12.4 Sunday

Victims of climate change

Every day!

Coffee, I presume. We had a light breakfast, I presume and left overs for lunch. It was a rainy day. I biked and went for fishing. I caught nothing. It was rainy and windy.

Foto by Maria, made by Elias. (People who actually know what a tortilla looks like, don't laugh)

At home I fixed Maria's back tire and another issues she had with her bike. Then we had tortillas and watched another approximate five hours of Netflix.

The evening is hazy.

11.4 Saturday

Coffee and I think I read a lot. Finished the book Georgsgatan by Henrik Tikkanen.

We went for a bike trip. From Berghäll to Tölö, Fölisön, Lövö, Svedjeholmen, Drumsö (we had coffee and cake here), Gräsviken, Bulevarden, Gamla stan and then walk home. Maria got a flat tire around Senate square. We shopped some groceries and bought some red wine from Spain and Vermouth from France.

It was tasty

We were starving and ate minute stake, fries and green salad. With redwine and drinks before. We watched Netflix and Yle for like five hours. I hate a quarter of a pack of lemon sorbet.

11.04.2020 Saturday

Woke up at a bit over six but fell asleep again and woke up at 09:40, which is unusual based on by recent sleep patterns. I went to the store and bought milk, oranges, bread, jam and a melon. Now going to have coffee and eat breakfast. Blog updating time.

When I was biking yesterday I was thinking about life. Should you try to document everything or not. Is it my autistic behaviour? Why document everything, when a lot in life is not interesting. That's one question. The other question is how much should you document what happens in your head and how much what happens around you. There is a lot of secret stuff happening in your head. I will think more about this so that I do smart stuff and don't need to feel bad. I am also thinking about habits and I have been able to resist some crappy ones. Like reading the news (headlines) all the time.

10.04 Friday

Woke up early and had coffee. Bought two croissants on the way to the office. I edited on a video about us going to Norway. I had a realisation - editing a catchy clip for people who are not actually interested in the topic is a completely different thing compared to a reflecting documentary. Also to make something for yourself as a memory was also be much more detailed and slow than something you make for others. Except your parents, or my parents, or my mom. She adores everything I make (except my webcomic Kirkkonummi).

We biked home and had a veggie soup made by Maria. I checked some houses and some auction prices. That's Elias. I went to the new mall Tripla and bought chain oil. Almost all shops were closed and at the station they were announcing train cancellations. It felt like something was going on.

In about 3 hours and 10 minutes I biked 70 km. I biked north, west and then back south. It felt good. It's how I cleanse my body, mind and soul. My father applies the same technique. On the way back I stopped in Lidl and bought groceries. On the way home I saw a dead person on a tram stop. Two ambulances with men dressed in white and with face masks. The body was covered under a sheet. We had dinner at home, lamb meat and rice. We watched the last episode of Bad Banks and watched three episodes about people in self-reliance.  I should write something about that short series.

9.04 Thursday

I woke up early again. Coffee shower and out. I biked to the post office and got my share certificate that the bank had mailed me as I no longer owe money to the bank. Strangely, I didn't feel that much. I biked to work and worked on the Norway clip. For lunch I biked home again and ate pasta. Then back to work where I continued editing. At 7 we broadcasted our second show. One hour and I feel we still look for what to do.  I bought some old fish on the way home for 1 euro and we fried it and it taste like Spanish tapas.

8 Wednesday. Same as above. Also editing Norway clip. We had sushi take away and it taste quite good (not super good) as we had eaten home food for three weeks. More editing at the office. I went to Lidl for snacks and at 7 we broadcasted for 1,5-2 hours. That's a completely new thing and exciting but it doesn't feel like that. Funny.

Normal days?

8.4.2020 I woke up early today, 7:10 and got up 7:30. And now is 07:57 so I cannot say much. I have started my project on habits. I'll write more about it later.

7.4.2020 Yesterday, I woke up early, 7:50. I wrote a good portion about my habits. Then I had a shower and a breakfast. Avocado, white bread, soured whole milk, grapes, tea with cardamon seeds, cheese. After breakfast I cleaned up everything. We are trying to keep our place nicer.

We biked to the office and I hanged around doing lazy stuff and not really working. I edited on a project about when we travelled to Norway by car, I updated an application and marketed our TV-series on social media.

Titus arrived to the office and set up together with Maria our streaming studio. We did some tryouts and will do our first stream tonight. Then we had a meeting about a music video.

After the test it was already about late and we biked home via the supermarket. M made noodles with chicken. We ate fast and violently, talked with my mum on the phone about whether our TV-show is individualistic and watched one episode of Bad Banks. It was exciting and I can recommend the series. It's on HBO.


6.4.2020 Here it's already more hazy. I woke up pretty early. Coffee and we had a discussion about habits. How can you improve those.

After a company meeting over the net I went to the office. I was there until 21.00 editing and listening loudly to music. At home Maria offered me soup. I went for a short walk and saw that the police was visiting our building. I washed up and went to sleep.

Flat tire

5.4.2020

It was earlier than usual that I woke up today. I woke up from an unpleasant though - that I had to go back to the gymnasium. First, I accepted by destiny but as time passed I got more upset. Why would I have to go back to school when I have been 10 years in working life.

I made coffee and we still have no dates to accompany the coffee. We had a quick smoothy (now I have learned Maria's recipe).

Off we went for jogging. It's part of our plan to renew our lives - more healthy, more sporty. You know what I mean. Let's hope we have more success this time. The sun was warm and the wind was cold. We jogged to the central park and found a warm spot at the hippodrome. We sucked in sun and exercised. No horses were on the track, but three rabbits ran fast over the tracks - horny or angry, either. We continued our jog in the parts of the park that resemble the woods. We saw many humans. Walking, standing, running, biking. It felt good.

At home a shower and left over lunch: a soup (new), tortillas (left over) and a khorest (left over). Everything delicious. Maria is an excellent chef. Food coma ensued and I read Henrik Tikkanen. I finished the third book Mariegatan 26. 4/5, great stuff.

We went for a walk to Lidl (the big one) and bought some missing pizza ingredients and made pizza at home. The yeast that we had was a bit old which made the home made pizza taste industrial pizza. But it was good I dare say even I made it myself.

4.4.2020

Again, my memory. Alas, I cannot remember any clear details from the morning yesterday. I know we had coffee.

We went biking around the city bay. After 10 km my back tire got flat. We drank some tea and coffee on the top of a hill at Hertonäs. There were some long stairs just next to our picnic spot. Girls and only girls where running and walking up the stairs. Earlier we say bird watchers and they were mostly men. Funny how hobbies depend on gender. I wonder if the topic has been studied.

The girls were running the stairs up and down and I didn't - photo Maria

We walk to the metro station and went to the new mall "Hertsi". An extremely boring place. As Maria said, a new mall in Finland is a Prisma (grocery store) and a Tokmanni (cheap store). I bought deodorant, two inner tubes, an outer tire to replace the broken one, two fishing lures and some fishing tufts.

We took the metro back home. I went to the cellar and changes the tire. We had lunch and I went down to the cellar again and continued fixing. It was easily done and the new tire look great.

A bit later I went fishing to Blåbärslandet. I didn't catch anything, but at least I saw three other fishermen so there might be fish. I biked home and Maria had made delicious Khorest Kado.

We watched some Bad Banks and then watched some Saturaday night fever and went to sleep.

3.4.2020

I read that the day was grey when I stopped writing. I watched the performance by Maria and Katia. It was fun to watch but the technical execution by the gallery was poor and affected the expression of art.

I met Maria in the street and we went to the supermarket and bought some groceries. We came home and made salmon and rice.

We watched Bad Banks and probably did something else but my memory fails me. The bars closed today until may 2020. There were some activities outside the bar opposite to us. Then I guess we slept.

Barmageddon

2.4.2020

We woke up and had coffee and ate the last dates.

I did my one hour marketing session of Hacka livet and did some Clayhill admin - look for funding, banking stuff etc.

I played seven games against Titus in Starcraft, 6-1 and I lost. That took most of my day, like four hours at least. Titus said Starcraft 2 is like drugs.

We walked to Lidl, where some people avoid you like death and other don't care. The latter annoy me more. We walked home and prepared tortillas. We watched one episode of bad banks on HBO. It's a German series about banking and I like it. They have managed some aspects of banking.

I read some Henrik Tikkanen

3.4.2020

In order to write today's post I need to remember what happened yesterday. In other words, writing this blog is increasingly become an exercise in using my memory. I feel it has deteriorated badly since I wrote this blog 10 years ago.

I slept slightly lighter this night. I woke up around nine and made coffee. We were out of dates. I finished the book Bävervägen by Henrik Tikkanen: rating 4/5. I washed up, took a shower and put on the pants that M hates. I did my one hour marketing session to market our web series Hacka livet. When that was done I made 5 sandwiches with ham and cheese and a pot of tea.

Titus and I played four games of Starfcraft ending 2-2, which is very unusual. Usually I lose much worse. After the games I was toast and ate an orange. Maria's performance is starting in 30 minutes.

It's cloudy outside and some fat and wet snow came down. Now it's just grey.

My memory is gone

25.3.2020 Wednesday

Wow I cannot remember much.

26.3.2020 Thursday

I took some photos of our place to get the know Maria's old Nikon D60. I managed to take these photos but you can see they are grainy. It's because the ISO was super high.

Living room

Dining area

Me sneezing (by Maria)

Titus stopped by and showed his new bike.

Titus new bike

27.3.2020 Friday

Not to forget what I did I made a list of what I did during the day.

Woke up.
Laid in bed.
Peed.
Put on coffee.
Drank coffee and ate dates.
Looked at auction prices from the previous auction at Helander.
Checking Freundenvonfreunden website (Maria found one good reference for the kitchen that we shall build in our old apartment.
Pooped.
Read one short story by Michel Ekman.
Washed up and cleaned the house (necessary when you spend so much time at home)
Peed.
Dressed up. (10:26)
Washed away a stain from todays shirt (some bolognaise from last night)
Took fresh air at the balcony.
Made breakfast.
Took some photos.
Continued making breakfast.
Discussing with Maria what a story is and the spread of Corona in the US, while eating breakfast
Cleaning breakfast table.
Procrastination: checking houses, Youtube clips.
Wrote synopsis of an idea: Virus 2021
Banking, admin, fixing practical things
I read the group "Lisää kaupunkia Helsinkiin group" (more city to Helsink, uraban forum)
Clayhill admin (video production company)
Talked with my mom (video call)
Warmed up lunch
lunch (bolognaise sauce and tomatoe sauce)
coffee with two dates
clayhill admin
personal administration (15:42)
Starcraft against Titus
A walk (18:40)
We went to Lidl
We ate a noodle soup
The rest is fucking forgotten. For the rest of my life.

28.3.2020 Saturday

This is super hazy. In the evening we filmed some tryouts for the scifi movie Virus 2021 idea. In the day I helped Maria in the studio with some sound related matters for her performance.

29.3.2020 Sunday

Today I woke up into summer time as did many other fellow human beings. I recall waking up briefly in the early morning and seeing a beautiful sky merging with the thin and black branches of the birch three in the courtyard.

I made a dough after getting up from bed. I found a recipe in Helsingin sanomat (Finnish newspaper).  Then I made a smoothy which is unusual. Maria is the smoothy maestro in our household. I made with raspberry, strawberry and blueberry (the rest is a secret). After a smoothy and several glasses of water. I cut my toenails, which look very old and torn. I went for a run. 8 km in the central park. I am heavy, it feels heavy but it's a step in the right direction: a ripped body.

bread

I came home from the run and took a shower. I put the bread in the oven and washed up. The bread was tasty. Actually I should take a photo. Here they are (I already ate six).

Now it's sunny and I'll go for a bike ride with Titus. These are the photos from the ride.

Titus by the sea with bike

By the sea 2

Stones and bikes

Treasure hunting

Safely securing the treasures

Contemplating the wonders of life

We biked  back home. It got cold and a bit snowy. 

30.1.2020 Monday

This is very hazy. I had a chill day, I guess. But U think I went for a jog.

31.1.2020 Tuesday

This is also very hazy. We woke up and had breakfast. We went for a long walk, about 10 km. Back home we were tired. Maria made chicken soup and I made brownies. We were more or less toasted the whole day.

1.4.2020 Wednesday

Sunny times

Today I woke up in clean sheets. As we have no curtain the day comes into the room early. I dreamt something that made me think my hands were very dirty in the morning when I woke up. I read a bit of Henrik Tikkanen. A delight to read. We had breakfast consisting of tea with honey, some dark rye bread with cheese, butter, spring onion and cucumber. One sliced apple and one sliced orange (in clefts).

Then I started working (on the video production company that Titus, Maria and me have founded). It has been slow during the past week. Then I got an important call from Yle that increase the amount of light on our future. More about that later. The good news put me out of balance. I zoned out and looked out through the window. Then I transferred 144 000 euros from one account to another account.

I was zoned out and lost twice against Titus in Starcraft. After the second game I was frustrated. I fried an onion, 3 potatoes and two eggs. Maria came home and was very hungry. I changed my marketing work for the webseries we made and now I work on hour on it every day. That is my target and I met that target today.

Then I made mushroom pasta with self picked mushrooms from autumn 2019. With garlic and parsley. Coupled with a salad (cosmopolitan, olive, spring onion and cucumber). Then I went to the celler and fixed a flat tire. It went so smoothly. Then I went fishing. I got no fish and the city was quiet. I went close to the Sompa sauna and saw three men. I biked home through new parts of town and it looked new. Now is now.